Dealing with grief

So I know that I have been a very bad blogger...and really I do not know if it has been noticed. This is a picture of my sister that just passed away and her lovely husband who is a really amazing person. His family had to be some of the nicest people that I have ever met.

Grief is a strange beast...I have been dealing with it for a month now. It is amazing the people that come to your side and support you and the people that you think will be a big support and they somehow missed the memo. Two people that really helped me a lot were actually 2 old college roommates, oddly enough the person that I felt the most compassion from doesn't even have a sister. Both of these women are close to my heart for many reasons! First Robyn, my college roommate from my first year at Ricks. We actually we to HS together and I always thought that she was one of the funniest cutest girls that I knew. I always wanted to be her friend...and got to know her my senior year. But even better than that we ended up being roommates our first year at college. I am sure that she was not as excited as I was when we found out...but I could not have been more excited (almost fan like) I loved being her roommate! She was funny and she and I had a lot in common. She taught me a lot and even took pity on me and let me borrow her fab clothes! She created the the clothes horse that I have become. I learned a lot from her that year...I like to think that she helped me be a better person. I am sure that she would kill me if she knew I was blogging about her. She has turned into this really amazing lady that I am proud to say is a friend.

The other person that really helped me is my friend Amy- she to is a really amazing person. We did not really know each other but knew that we both needed a cheaper place to live our 2nd year. We found these groovy apartments and decided to live together. We had so much fun! We too were kindred spirits and she really helped me with my parents divorce and dealing with plain craziness. What I loved about Amy is that she never judged me- she just loved me for who I was. She is one of the most beautiful and talented people that I have ever met and through all of her trials she remains steadfast in her beliefs and keeps going! I admire her for that! She too would kill me for blogging about her.

Kind neighbors that have brought me cards, flowers and hugs. As well as my employees and bosses that have sent flowers and kind words. I thank all of them and let them know that all of that makes a difference! Saying I am sorry you are sad means more than silence... I am again reminded how important it is to reach out to others when they are troubled and/or grieving, and what a difference it really makes.

So I thank both of these amazing women, that I love and admire for their support and concern for me, my husband and my children. Although I feel much better...I will say that my heart is heavy and a little bit of me is lost. Grief is a crazy beast...just when you think that you have put it in the box and you are putting it up on the shelf the lid falls off. So you pull it out and try it on again just to see if it still fits and it does...unfortunately. So you wear it for a couple of days and finally ready to try and put in the box again.

But thankfully each day it gets a little better...I can talk to my sister Deb and not cry. She too has been a big help...although she is just a broken hearted as I am.

Well the scrapbook dungeon is completely redone and I will post a picture. It has taken me 2 weeks of assembling IKEA furniture and moving everything back in. I am ready to start posting cuts and layouts! I am excited to have my own space again!

Thanks for checking back and I will be posting this week!

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